You're not alive if you don't feel yourself fighting hard for air.
Working hard, but not hard enough. Playing hard, but not hard enough. The in between which people may say is a balance, but to me, that's cruising around. I'm not taking work or play as a joke for sure, it's just the tingling feeling that doesn't sit in.
Seeing so many jobs coming in, gosh, insane stress again. People say, keep yourself occupied with work during heartbreak. Yours truly thinks otherwise. Working even harder makes me feel miserable (fyi I don't hate my job). Having to OT is so draining. Maybe I need a life because I didn't have one before. Yeah, life should be more ENERGETIC.
Was discussing with friend about loving ourselves. Eat what we want, do whatever shit we can, splurge on ourselves and feel every penny spent for ourselves is goddamn worth it. The lesson for both of us was, not about who's right or wrong, but to love ourselves right.
Stand Chart in three days. Another step towards a stronger me. A better me. A happier me.